Wednesday, August 27, 2008

this isn't getting any easier....

so as you all know, my grams is whittling down to nothing. one of the strongest women i know (the other, most likely, my other grandmother) can no longer get out of bed on her own.

it's hard to watch, but i've tried to visit her as much as i can. i'm not sure that she knows me anymore, but she smiles and nods at me. she also waves her hand at me when i ask her if she's comfortable or if i can get her anything.

a couple of weekends ago, i was hanging out with my cousins (whom i rarely see) at my grandmother's apartment. she lives with my parents, which, growing up, was always fun. she'd baby sit us, check up on us, let us watch tv with her, scold us when we needed it, offer us advice when we didn't want it (but needed it anyway).

i was going through my limited polish vocabulary with her. she smiled and laughed as i struggled over words like "zimny" (cold) and "swinia" (pig). i told her - "you taught me that, grams!"

and in her infinite though perhaps clouded wisdom, she responded with "I taught you everything."




and that, my bloggy friends, is quite true.

current itunes song: "silent house" by the dixie chicks

11 comments:

FunnyGal KAT said...

She's quite a lady. I haven't talked with her very often, but I remember going upstairs to visit with her (with you, of course) and she kept trying to feed us.

Your post is a beautiful tribute to your grams. I know it is so tough watching her decline. Hang in there!

Stephanie said...

I'm sorry you're going through this; though it is never easy, you will cherish these moments you had with her at the end of her life. Hang in there. I'll be thinking of you...

Insane Mama said...

my grandma just passed away in May. I spent a lot of time with her in the end, and I am SO glad I did. Now, my other grandma, who is 97 is coming to live with me in about a week so I can take of her. Grandmas are so special. What a great photo

Molly said...

I love that photo of you two! So sorry to hear she is declining and I am so glad you have such good memories of her.

Meg said...

I'm sorry you are going through this. I think this is a wonderful post.

hautepocket said...

Aww, haha that quote is so adorable! I feel the same way about my late grandmother. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hang tough. :)

Burg said...

I've been there... It is very tough.. Hold onto all those good moments, they're what will get you through. :)

Srg said...

Ok sj - you have to stop writing these posts that make me tear up at work! Or I'll just have to stop reading your blog while I'm at work. Seriously though - your tribute is so touching. It's wonderful memories like those that keep us going even when times are rough.

sj said...

thank you all for your warm thoughts and sharing your own stories. it totally helps to think of the happy times.

and sometimes, you just need to share, you know?

Mama's Losin' It said...

Ohhhhh...I love grams!! What sweet little lady. This must be really hard for you...I'm so sorry!!

jal12771 said...

As SJ said, Thank you all for your kind words. This is such a difficult time for us.
Gram is a wonderful lady