not so funny.

sorry. this isn't a funny post, mostly because i don't have a whole lot of funny going on these days. in fact, i must warn you that the humor you may find in this post is the gruesome kind of humor that some people find offensive.

tomorrow morning i'll be attending a memorial service for my aunt who recently passed away (Tuesday). i have really mixed feelings about this whole thing -- mostly because i did not have a close relationship with her for the past few years. i should have mended things before she died, but i didn't. i'm not sure how i feel about it either.

but she is my second aunt (and my mom's second sister) to die from cancer in three years. to which i say: leave my family the f^#k alone, cancer.

however, because i am one of those people that deals really badly with death, i have been trying my hardest to think of other things. funnier things, really.

it started at work today when i was trying to leave early to get to my mom's house in order to prep for the service. i spoke with a cousin last night who told me that they were looking to us to bring baked goods to the after service reception.

which led me to think: what kind of cupcakes do you serve at a funeral?

one of my good friends told me "black. just burn them. it'll be fine." (when i said, "but my aunt is going to be cremated" he responded with: "even more fitting.")

another suggested: "funfetti, naturally."

after a host of inappropriate jokes with my colleagues, at one point, for the first time in WEEKS, i was laughing so hard i cried. i have done my share of crying for the past month for a variety of reasons, so to cry from laughing was rather therapeutic.

and goodness knows i could use some therapy.

current itunes song: "the man that got away" by judy garland